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Thursday, April 22, 2010

Airport. Again. Really?!

Didn't think it was possible to get burnt out on travelling since I love it so much, but I actually am. Haven't even been home a week from my last trip and I'm now heading out to Seattle again.

Tomorrow is almost the last step in the reconstructive process. I'll be having a small procedure in the clinic to top these things off. In a few more months I'll come back for the color and at last that will be it. Can't believe this all started a year ago. Sheesh. Even though this is a little procedure and no big deal, I still wish someone was here to hold my hand. I'm sure it will be fine though. My surgeon is a rockstar and is super nice and comforting so I know I really don't have anything to worry about.

Tomorrow night after the procedure, I'm flying down to Boise to see my mom for a short couple of days. Nolan was able to take some time and make it up from SLC too. So even though I'm ready to just be home I also feel lucky to get this little visit with my family. Back home again late Sunday night.


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Monday, April 19, 2010

Where should we get married?

Erik and I want to have a wedding that is a simple celebration with our friends and family. We are starting a life together and want to share the love we have for one another with all those that we love. We are lucky enough to have people we want to share this with all over the place, but it makes things just a little tricky when we are trying to figure out where to do it.

California seems to make the most sense because most of Erik's family and friends are there as well as many of my friends and some family. Though it is not where either of us call home, it is where we both were raised and will always return. Another thought is Utah, specifically southern Utah because it is truly one of the most beautiful places on the planet. Also, most of my family and many friends are there. And of course, there's Idaho, which is not actually my home, but has felt like it is from the minute I got there. And, Idaho is very likely where Erik and I may make our home someday.

Anywhere we do it, we know that many people will have to travel to get there so we want to go somewhere that people would want to go and maybe be able to have a little vacation along with attending our wedding.

If we could we'd have it in our backyard, but we know travelling to Alaska is just too expensive for many people so we want to be somewhere that is more accessible.

We'll have a ceremony and reception, ideally in the same place. We'd like to be outside (beach, mountains, desert) for at least the cermony. Budget is minimal.

Do you have any thoughts/ideas to share? A park, a summer camp, a favorite (accessible) beach or campground? A restaurant with a great view and/or good outside space? Any ideas on any of this would be so appreciated. This is something we want to do as much for ourselves as for those we hope will attend, so please give me your ideas! (about anything)

Oh and by the way, we had a great week in California and have been back home since Saturday. Pictures will be added to the posts below soon (if I can make myself get around to it).

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Friday, April 09, 2010

bye bye big corn, hello managua

(oops. though this posted last night, but i now see it didn't. we are just about to board the plane. soooo tired)

our last day on the island was awsome! we took two fantastic reef dives with two divemasters, a super sweet couple from israel. they have been travelling by car from california to central america over the past 4 months and are working on an independent documentary of the coral reefs along the caribbean coast. they are throwing in some underwater photos of divers to make a little extra money along the way. i felt really lucky to get that extra bonus. we haven't seen the pics yet, but are cautiously taking care of the disc they gave us. it's not just for the underwater photos, but also for the possible wedding announcement photo too. yay! we hired the woman, lee, to take some sunset beach photos that night. we haven't seen those either, except for a few previews on her camera screen, but i think they're going to be beautiful. i feel so grateful that we stumbled on that opportunity to capture some really nice pictures together from this oh so special trip and i can't wait to see how they turned out. spent the night swimming in the pool under the stars with our new israeli friends until about 10pm. perfect!

we were up at 5am to take a miserable, HOT flight off of the island. i was really airsick from the bumpy ride and the super humid air in the plane about did me in. erik was tired and hungry so you can imagine his mood. i hate to make sweeping statements, but seriously, boys are just such babies!! (love you my sweet little potato, but you know it's true!) if they've had their nap and have a full belly they're pretty happy, but otherwise, well, you know as well as i do i'm sure. grrr.

once back in managua we decided to rent a car for the day, not sure of what we were going to do with it. what we ended up doing was nothing more than driving in circles around/through the city. we made an attempt to follow an extremely rough map and find a few things the guide book recommended, but really just ended up sort of touring the busy crazy streets of this bustling city with no real direction or destination. in fact we played "follow that random vehicle" a couple of times, but erik didn't think it was quite as fun as i did so that game didn't last long. we were going to take a little drive out of town, but after a fun, but slightly stressful drive around the city for about 3 hours, we were done done done with the car!!! we stopped only for some lunch and a few unhelpful glances at the map, but still enjoyed it.

we've settled on a hotel/casino close to the airport for our last night. we enjoyed the late afternoon by the pool and are now relaxing in the room and gearing up for (hopefully) a poker game tonight. the hotel is really comfortable and has super cute toiletries that made me think of my mom who would love them (i'm even bringing them home for you, though i know you don't really need any help with your stash. they were just too good, you'll see.)

we'll be back at the airport at 4:30am and in la by 2pm. can't wait to see (my soon to be) family tomorrow!

-- Post From My iPhone

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

goat eggs

its been stormy and raining on and off for the past day and a half. we aren´t working on our tan as much as we´d hoped, but the cooler temps have actually been a really nice surprise. its a tropical storm so the weather is still hot its just that you don´t notice you´re sweating quite as much when you´re getting rained on too. we´ve still been spending lots of time outside and actually enjoying ourselves walking around the island more because we´re not getting killed by the blistering sun. we´ve been spending a lot of time just wandering the island both the main road and random dirt paths that lead to who knows where. we´re finding lots of stray cows, horses, pigs, dogs, cats, and the chickens are everywhere. there is no worry of getting lost because you really can´t get too far off track. there is some absolutely beautiful land here that is just so lush and thick with plant life. it has always struck me in tropical environments that the massive plants you see growing wild are the same tiny variety i buy in small pots at lowe´s. to see them in all their glory like this is just beautiful. there are small, very basic homes often made of cement or cinder blocks, with a smattering of larger more decadent places. some have thatched roofs and most others are metal roofing. there is a huge diversity in the condition of the homes and yards here with some places gleaming with pride and care, while others are surrounded by loads of garbage and what seems to be a total disregard. the economic level of the home is not a real factor either. some places that are as simple as they come seem to have owners that take the most pride and make next to nothing look amazing. while, quite the opposite is true of many, what look to be, higher priced homes and land. there is a number of churches, tons of tiny little stores out of people´s homes all carrying very similar basic items, lots of small bars and restaurants, several small guest houses, two large hotels (and by large i mean about 15 - 20 rooms), and a taxi cab every few feet. fresh fruit and vegetables are a scarce commodity as is any sort of healthy food options. lobster, crab, shrimp, and fish are a staple at the dozens of small restaurants, often right out of someone´s home, just like the little stores. but, finding these things cooked without massive amounts of butter or breading is difficult. i have to admit that i´m loving the garlic and butter drenched lobster. its absolutely delish! among the lush landscape and absolutely breathtaking ocean all around there are incredibly kind, happy, generous people all around us too. we haven´t yet found someone on this island that hasn´t met us with a really genuine smile and interest in knowing what we´re doing, what we need, or if there is something they can do to help us. the kids are take your breath away gorgeous, curious and soooo sweet. they love to have their pictures taken and then see themselves in the digital camera so that has been fun for me to share with them. we rented a golf cart for a couple of hours one day to explore a little more than we could on foot and we gave an older man a quick ride on a bumpy dirt road. when he saw my camera he wanted me to take his picture and when i showed him the image of himself he stared so intently at it for at least a minute or two. he was expressionless but totally engrossed. made me wonder how long it had been since he had seen his own face. after his long stare he seemed to snap out of his daze, smiled and said thank you.

the reason i was posting tonight was not really to give my commentary of the island, but actually just to share a funny story . . . since erik and i have been doing a lot of aimless walking around and the island isn´t that big we obviously have passed the same places a number of times. there is a rather large empty lot to the side a a small home fairly close to our hotel that has a goat tied with a rope to a tree. the rope is long so the goat can get around a pretty large area, but that area is filled with garbage, burn piles, car parts, etc, etc. it is right on the ocean with an amazing view, but i´m not sure how much the goat really appreciates that. i have a fondness for goats (what can i say . . . i am my mother´s daughter) so its been hard to see this little girl in these conditions (or any of the animals for that matter). erik thinks the goat is a pet while i assume that it will be a future meal(s) for the family in the small house nearby, which i suppose isn´t not such a bad thing. so one day we were walking by and didn´t see the goat and i said something like, "it looks like there will be a good dinner tonight. . . " erik didn´t think so and later we saw that erik was right when we noticed the goat tucked away behind a tree further down in the lot. he was driving the point home that it was their pet and i agreed that maybe he was right. he mentioned that maybe they were just using it for milk and i again agreed that maybe that was the case. then i went on to say, "or maybe they are making cheese . . . or just using it for the eggs." (i know, i know, i`m super mean . . . ) erik says, "the eggs, what do you mean, goats don´t have eggs do they?" i can´t believe i was able to stay serious, but i was and i said, "of course they have eggs. haven´t you ever had goat eggs? they´re so good." erik says, "really. i had no idea goats had eggs. crazy." believe it or not, i´m still not done and i keep going . . . i say "didn´t you have any when we were at my mom´s place?" to which he replied, "no, i don´t think so." then, i say "well, next time you talk to my mom, you´ll have to ask her about it . . . " finally i caved and confessed that i was full of it. as i´m typing this story, i realize that maybe its not so funny to anyone else, but to me, it was priceless. i was dying with laughter by this time. cracked me up!! erik wasn´t quite as amused, though he was laughing too.

so, its not over . . . i teased a couple times about this before erik got me back. we were on some dirt path going through someone´s farm probably and i noticed a horse that wasn´t tied up and suggested we try to ride the horse bareback (i was kidding). erik chuckled at the thought and then suddenly said, "hey, that horse isn´t tied up." this i knew, hence the suggestion to ride it. i just said, "i know, that´s why i thought we should ride it. the other one out there lying down isn´t tied up either. we could both ride our own horse." moments later, erik gleefully pointed out, "hey babe, that isn´t a horse, that´s a cow" and we both got a laugh. he immediately teased saying that he couldn´t wait to tell my mom that her daughter doesn´t know the difference between a horse and a cow to which i of course teased him some more about the goat eggs. a little while later on the dirt path there was a split with a couple of choices on which way to go. i of course thought we should go a different way than erik thought but he was more insistent, so i followed. but, i had to give him a little grief and ask why he thought he was so right. he said, "i´m sorry babe, i just have a better sense of direction than you." i said, "whatever you need to think sweetie . . . " (can you hear the sarcasm? its a little bit of a problem with us. keeps us laughing though.) well, to that he replied "babe, c´mon, you don´t even know the difference between a horse and a cow, how are you supposed to lead us in the right direction?" and that kept us laughing until we did find the main road shortly thereafter. . .

don´t you just love the cheap thrills that come when you´ve got nothing but time on your hands. good stuff!

Sunday, April 04, 2010

corn islands . . . a true paradise

erik and i arrived on big corn island yesterday and this place is amazing!! we´re splurging and staying in a nice hotel for this last 5 days of our trip. we decided we had enough of sauna like sleeping conditions and fighting over the wet sarong and closest proximity to the barely there fan. wouldn´t change any of it, but we´re done. for the first time, we have both been acknowledging that we´re not quite the backpackers we´d still like to think we are. we can hang with just about anything and still have a great time, but we can also stand to treat ourselves a little bit and so that is just what we´ve decided to do. we didn´t make it up to stay at one of the surf beaches like we thought, but instead we decided to get a puddle jumper across the ocean to the corn islands for some real r & r. no more searching for overpriced steamy hot rooms, no more chicken buses, and no more contemplating the next destination. we are here! we´re staying in one spot for the rest of the time and are looking forward to just chilling out and exploring this approximately 6 square km island.

erik finished his diving certification with private classes over the past three nights. poor guy. i know it was torture for him. fidel ended up being even more thorough than i expected. erik was in class for about 10 hours over the course of three days, plus time spent studying the material between his classes, for which he also had a private tutor (me). so, when he finished at 10pm friday night we were both relieved. we were up at 4am the next morning and waiting for the 5am "expresso bus" to managua. ha! we made every possible stop there was it seemed. but, it was on a tour style bus rather than an old school bus so that made it a little more comfortable for sure. it was still packed with people though and some stood holding on to the railing above their head for the full 2 1/2 hour ride. erik and i tried to doze off, but the early morning breeze coming through the window we were lucky enough to get and the colors in the sky as we watched the sun come up wasn´t a bad alternative.

we ended up in managua with about 5 hours to wait for the flight to the islands. fortunately there was a best western across the street from the airport that we were able to crash for a few hours. we had a good breakfast and then lounged by the pool watching what looked to be a mini mtv pool party. it was crawling with kids just having a great time along with bumping spanish hip hop music. erik still managed to be quickly snoring away in his lounge chair and i just enjoyed relaxing and watching the scene. the flight over to the islands was in a tiny little plane like i used to ride out to the villages in nome. 10 of us were packed in tight for the 1 1/2 hour flight over the water. the second you land, you feel like you are in different world. everyone is moving around on island time, speaking english that is still almost as hard to understand as spanish, and the air is just somehow different. the water is crystal clear and there is one road that circles the whole island. we´re planning to dive, take a boat to little corn island, enjoy the a/c, play in the ocean view infinity pool, bicycle around, laze in hammocks, read, and . . . well, not sure there needs to be anything more than that.

so, we´re safe, we´re happy, and we know how lucky we are . . . we love you and we´ll be coming home on friday morning . . . have a good week wherever you are.

xoxo

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

san juan del sur

we´ve been in this super cute little beach town in southwestern nicaragua for a couple of days staying with rebecca who rents a few rooms in her house about a block from the beach. she is super sweet and instantly feels like a protective grandma. its been the perfect place for us. sadly, we can´t stay longer because she´s booked up. we knew that we would be here for semana santa, which is a week long celebration of easter. kids are out of school, nicas are travelling (many of which to right here in san juan), religious ceremonies are happening all over town, and oddly enough a HUGE party is about to ignite (seems a little contradictory, eh?). we knew it was a big deal, but the little bit of research i did before the trip made things sound like reservations weren´t necessary and we´d be fine just showing up. ha!! wrong. this is the biggest holiday here and things are booked weeks and even months in advance. we´ve spent the last two days looking and finally found somewhere for triple the price it should be and still here in san juan rather than in one of the smaller beach towns about 40 - 60 minutes north. but, from what we could gather it seems that staying in the smaller towns isn´t the best idea during this week anyway because its not as safe/secure. not to worry anyone, but yes, this week is the number one time for crime, specifically theft. but, we have a good place to stay and are early birds so we won´t really be in the mix of all the action. it will be kind of cool to see the day time festivals and events though.

we would just move on from here, but erik has just started his PADI diving certification so we´ve got at least another 2 days for that. we met a really great guy who took us diving yesterday. basically erik started his course with 20 min. or so of basic instruction and information and then a jump right out in the ocean to "learn by doing" as fidel, his instructor said. the pacific ocean is not known to be spectacular for diving due to somewhat cool water temps, less reef, and fairly limited visibility (at least by comparison to the caribbean), but to my surprise, it was actually one of the better dives i´ve been on. we saw TONS of life and colors and erik got to have a really awsome first dive experience around 40-50 feet. we took a second dive as well that was good, but not quite as great as the first one. there were tons of jellyfish on this one and i was so glad i took the instructors advice on wearing the full wetsuit (which i avoid any chance i can because i would rather be a bit cool but less confined). no jelly fish stings, though one came scary close to my face, at least according to erik. he was motioning pretty enthusiastically for me to come toward him at one point under the water, but i couldn´t figure out why at the time. once we were back in the boat he said there was a jelly fish literally almost on my cheek. eek. i´m sure a sting and i´d be singing a different tune, but i have to say it was really fantastic to be surrounded by those delicate and beautiful creatures. very cool. with none of the confined pool dives, book work, and tedious skills checks to deter him, erik was of course all over doing this. i was a little concerned because i think going through the steps is at least somewhat valuable . . . but, erik was totally gung ho and wanted to go for it so there we went. i´m glad we did. after spending more time with fidel it was clear that he wasn´t skipping anything, he just had a more hands on way of approaching it, which is exactly right for erik. he was also very clearly safe, aware, and experienced. erik is still going to do the required components, but this way he got a taste of everything before he committed to doing the full certification program. he´s actually in his first class now. a private 2 hr. review of the first 2 (of 4) sections in the PADI manual. he´s been painstakingly studying last night and this afternoon and he´ll have one more 2 hour class on friday morning and then we´ll take two more dives that afternoon. its exciting because erik has been wanting to do this for a while and now we can do it together, which is great.

so, saturday we´ll move on from san juan and probably spend a couple days at a better surf spot up the coast. eventually we´re hoping to make it to the caribbean coast and out to great corn island for some more diving and exploring of this less travelled area with a more garifuna than nica culture.

i have loved my solo trips in the past and actually thought this trip might have been a solo one when i first started planning it, but i am so damn glad that i´m here with sharing it with erik. wouldn´t be nearly as great otherwise . . . i think i´ve turned a corner . . .

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

life is just too good!!!

thanks to everyone for your love, support, and beautiful comments to the last post. i´m so excited to be looking forward to sharing this life with my best friend. i love him so much and what we have is just beyond anything i ever knew it could be. i´m so grateful!! we took a while to get here, but i wouldn´t change any of it because it feels EXACTLY where we are supposed to be and it tells me we must have needed everything we´ve gone through to land here. he is truly the love of my life and i know i will be safe and adored forever. its such a gift to have him. i am soooooo excited to get to be part of a whole new family who i already love too. i´m thrilled to be able to call you my sister too kara and you know how much i´m in love with that little man logan and how honored i am to be his auntie! we are already thinking of him bringing the ring down the aisle. can´t wait.

all is well here in nicaragua. we´re having a great time . . . but, we´ve realized we have a little more time here than we really need and we are anxious to come home and spend a little more time with friends and family in california. so, we´ve changed our plane tickets and are coming home 4 days early. we´ll see you in california on friday, april 9th . . . (and kara, we won´t need a ride, but we´d love to spend the night with you guys that night).

xoxoxo

Monday, March 29, 2010

i´m engaged!

erik and i walked down to lago de nicaragua yesterday morning about 5:30am to watch the sunrise. when you get to bed at 8:30pm just to avoid having to move any longer in the heat, its only natural that you´d be up at the crack. we´ve already decided this is definitely our preferred schedule here. enjoying the slight coolness of the morning is a real treat. we had a nice walk and sat down on the shores at the lake in perfect time to see the sun make her way up. gorgeous! to my total shock erik surprised me with a proposal. i truly was blown away. i had NO IDEA at all that the thought of marriage was really on his radar. things have been so incredibly wonderful between us these past several months and i know we have both felt, more than ever before, that what we have is right. so right that we, after 6 years, have finally found ourselves looking ahead and thinking about our lives TOGETHER. but, i still thought that erik really wasn´t ready to think about getting married and to be honest i wondered how long it would be before we really faced that idea together. i´m so happily amazed at his ability to completely take my breath away and surprise me like he did . . . beautiful ring and all. my mind and heart has been swirling in a million different directions the past 24 hours and i just couldn´t be happier that i am actually engaged to erik . . . the love of my life.

we spent last night at laguna de apoyo, an incredible fresh water lagoon and got lots of swimming in day and night. back in granada today to, most importantly, share this news with friends and family, and to figure out our next move . . . probably to the coast for some surfing and diving . . .

Friday, March 26, 2010

off to nicaragua

me and my baby . . . and a tropical paradise, jungles, mountains, rivers, chicken buses, volcanoes, islands(even erupting ones), diving, surfing, white sand beaches, palm trees and hopefully plenty of surprises.

we spent the day yesterday in orange county with erik's family and now we are waiting for our delayed flight to houston and then on to managua, nicaragua. I'll post here once in a while you know we are alive and well :).


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Saturday, January 09, 2010

surgery is over

The anticipated 2 hr surgery got started a little late and ultimately lasted about 3 1/2 hrs instead. I woke up pretty uncomfortable as usual and the nurse taking care of me wouldn't let Erik come back to see me until I was feeling better. Seems a little backwards to me. I needed to use the bathroom, but unfortunately couldn't even sit up on the side of the bed without nearly falling over so I got to do the bed pan thing. Ugh! There has go to be a better way. I had nausea, but not as bad as it's been other times. In the past I've also had breathing problems after surgery and this time I didn't at all, which I was very grateful for. But, my blood pressure was down to 76/52-ish for a while and I was in a lot of pain. I could hear the nurses talking about admitting me and about paging the doctor and I somehow was able to pull it together to avoid having to stay. I still felt terrible, but told them I felt better. I know it's bad, but I've been through all this before and knew that being in the hospital wasn't going to change how I felt. My blood pressure also came up after a couple of IV bags of fluid and at last they agreed to let me go. We left the hospital at about 5:30pm, just over 12 hours since we had checked in that morning. The pain has been more significant than I anticipated, but it's getting better. The results are sort of hard to assess right now because I'm still so swollen, so I can't really say whether or not I'm happy with it. But, whether I'm happy with it or not, this is it. No more surgeries for me.

Erik has been so awsome and is taking good care of me. His support has meant so much.

We're now at the airport getting ready to head back to Boise for a few days . . . .

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